The fallacy of man

Some men see things as they are and say, "Why?" I dream of things that never were and say, "Why not?"
-George Bernard Shaw

If i smoked, today would be the day i just sit outside and smoke.

If i drank diet coke, today would be the day i just sit outside and drank diet coke.

However, i just eat candy, so today i just sit outside and eat candy.

Because for the first time in a long time, the heart is not in the work, and i’m not particularly mad about it.

And when the Pittsburgh weather saves the day from being a disaster, you know the day was crappy.

But i liked the weather, and i liked the smile even more.

I could almost get used to that. And that is just wrong.

For the first time in a long time i woke up with a clear mind. No burden upon my shoulders. And it felt good.

For the first time in a long time, i must thank you. thank You. I think i have been unnecessarily cruel. But i have my reasons, and you know that. I’m not exactly one to take what i deem unnecessary risks. Cautiousness, precision, thoroughness, persistence. These are what make me. These are the rules i live by. I do not do things which do not bring any measurable benefit.

For the first time in a long time, i will take an "unnecessary" risk. Normally, it may involve one losing his mind, but surely this is not a problem for a person whose sanity ratings based on public opinion range from "mad" to "raving lunatic". I will leave the people their illusions.

For the first time in a long time, i felt fear. And i relished it. I reveled in its awesome power. After all, the fearless are merely fearless. Courage is the ability to act in spite of fear.

For the first time in a long time i woke up with a clear mind. No burden upon my shoulders. And it felt good. Very good.

I could almost get used to this.